Why I like to go homestudying when I was a junior

I just found this stuff on one of my folders when I was cleaning and so, I decided to put this up on my blog because this says a lot about my personality and my past. I don't want it to just throw away so...

I made this last year because I want to convince my mom and dad to let me go homeschooling. It's also a rant of my High School and on the last parts were about what I like to do and what type of person I want to be. I'm sure you'll know more about me when you read this

OH i forgot, it's in Filipino Language! haha sorry ^_^

but i'll edit this soon

SA CURRENT SKUL KO

• ayoko nang magtiis para lang makapagaral ng mga lessons na di ko naman alam kung dapat ba talaga pag-aralan
• gusto ko ung curriculum ng Philippine Science High School, our school's curriculum sucks!
• ayoko ng CLE, kse puro common sense lang nman ung tinuturo, sabi nga ni Brother Dave, nung once, nagsub siya sa amin, dapat daw tinuturo sa amin ung sacraments, tama nga naman! Ung mga tinuturo kse sa amin "Human Person as Created by God", "Human Person as Beloved", blahblahblah, pwede naman pag-aralan namin un ng isang bagsakan lang, winewaste pa ung class periods sa kakadiscuss nito eh common sense naman. Kung ako lang teacher sa CLE Bible Study na lng o kaya ung tungkol sa Revelation, common sense lang naman ung mga tinuturo namin ngayon sa CLE eh, katulad nung steps in forming a conscience tsaka ung meaning ng Freedom na pinapakabisado at pinapagawan pa ng play sa amin. I can have my own damn steps in forming a conscience tsaka own meaning of freedom, ndi naman dapat kinakabisado un eh, kse iba-iba ang meaning ng freedom sa bawat tao at iba-iba rin ung paraan namin sa pagfoform ng conscience. altho it helps us reflect more but again we shouldn't be memorizing all these stuff!
• ayoko ng paulit-ulit na topic and lessons sa lahat ng subject,
• katulad sa TLE, for 3 years na ako nagtatahi na mga bwiset na stich na yan, pati yang mga definition, uses, description ng stiching materials, yang mga thimble, pinking shears.. etc. Laging meron yan kapag papagaralan mo ung TLE, importante nga un, pero di ba, ndi namn kami tanga na dapat paulit-ulit ung tinuturo? ah ok, the reason for that,  kaya paulit-ulit yung tinuturo para matandaan namin? hay nako, makakalimutan din naman namin yan kapag nagraduate na kami, pustahan magtanong ka ng alumni, tanung mo sa kanya kung pano satin stich, sasabihin niya "nakalimutan ko na eh, naalala ko lng dun ung running stich tsaka basting stich eh (which are like so fucking easy to memorize)!" ang dapat lng naman dyan ung experience eh!
• tapos ung isa pa ung lessons namin sa Physical Education, ung Fundamental Arm and Feet Position na hindi naman masyado importante, parati yan pinapakabisado sa amin. Tapos ung music din, paulit-ulit ung pagpapakabisado sa amin ng different instrument ng iba't ibang bansa, pero hanggang ngayon , ung instrument lang na "buktot" at "faglong" naalala ko at mga kaklase ko, nakalimutan ko pa kung ano itsura nun. 1st to 3rd year high school, yun lang ginawa namin 
• the main reason why I hate our Music subject kasi puro na names LANG ung tinuturo namin, never kami tinuruan tumugtog ng piano, violin, flute, o kaya kung pano magbasa ng mga nota (although tinuro ng unti lang sa amin yun), which is dapat yun talaga yung tinuturo sa music (duh, that's why u call it music!) di katulad ng ibang schools, may flute lessons o kahit anung instrument na lessons para sa mga students. Eh, ano naman mangyayari kung sa instrument name lang kami expert?? well, ganito mangyayari dyan 

"ui Marianne di ba marami kang alam na instrument... ano tawag dito?"

"ah, buktot yan, tapos ung isa fagong yung tawag"

"ui, ang galing mo naman, kabisado mo, tugtugan mo naman kami!"

"sorry, di ko alam kung pano tugtugin yan eh, alam ko lang yung pangalan, YUN LANG"

"ngek, tanga naman nito, alam nga pangalan, ndi naman alam kung pano tugtugin"

• tapos yung sa Physical Education namin, ang corny kse imbis, volleyball, basketball, badminton at kung anu-anong sports ung tinuturo sa amin, Asian Dances yung tinuturo or yung mga steps na redoba, polka..etc ung tinuturo sa amin! ndi naman kailangan yun sa buhay natin eh, yung dace para sa Pilipinas, oo kailangan, pero yung pang-ibang bansa, di dapat, and kung dance lang din ituturo sa amin, bakit ndi na lang ung pang ballroom which is mas useful pa, pwede pa tayo sumali sa mga contest tapos mapapanalo natin. Sige, try mo mag-aral ng Thailand Dance o Indonesian Dance, hanap ka ng partner mo kung interesado sila, tapos sali kayo sa Talentadong Pinoy, tignan natin kung mananalo kayo.. aantukin lang naman siguro yung judges sa inyo. 
• tapos naiinis din ako sa English namin. alam ko kailangan yung history of Literature sa bawat Bansa, pero hindi sana yun ung finofocus natin sa English Subject. Nauubos kasi yung time sa mga bagay na hindi naman ganon ka importante. Kailangan natin yun, pero hindi dapat iniispare yung buong 1st and 2nd quarter para lang dun. Mas importante pa yung grammar, mas importante pa yung reading comprehension, at ung public speaking. at dahil sa history lang naman din yung inaaral natin, bakit hindi na lang din yung styles ng literature or kung pano ung ginagawa yung praktisin natin? 
• ayoko rin ung bibili ng bokos na hindi naman gagamitin, TIME CONSUMING, GASTOS PA! bakit ko nasabi na time consuming? ganito kasi style ng ibang teachers
• magpapakopya sila ng sobrang haba na notes, halos 3 pages, tapos ndi naman ididiscuss
• for like 3 periods ung nasasayang sa kakakopya ng notes eh pwede naman i-xero na lang or can i say, pwede naman SA LIBRO NA LANG BUMASE, AT UNG LIBRO ANG GAMITIN!
• tsaka ayoko na magtiis para lang magawa ko un gmga gusto kong gawin
• pano ko nasabi na nagtitiis ako? kse tinitipid ko ung tim para lang magawa ko gusto ko.
• sobra na ako naging time conscious na kahit paglaro ko sa kapatid ko o pagusap ko sa mga kaibigan ko INOORASAN ko na
• at lagi akong nagmumultitask para lang matipid yun oras, yun para bang (it's true that i've had done/have been doing all of these)
• naglilinis ng kwarto habang nagmememoriz ng multiplication table
• o kya gumagawa ng assignment habang nakikinig sa teacher (napagalitan pa nga ako nito eh)
• kinakausap sa phone yung kagroupmate sa CLE habang nagreresearch ng history ni nostra damus, habang nagppakulo ng tubig para may kape
• at pati yung tulog ko, which is pinakamasakit at pinakamahirap, sinasacrifice ko pa para lang dito
• gumagawa pa nga ako ng tips to stay awake which are like 5 or 7 pages
• tapos may technique pa nga ako (kapag ndi gumagana ung kape) na paglalagay ng ice cubes sa binti/legs ko para lang magising, tapos pinapahid ko pa yun sa katawan ko
• o kaya sinasampal ko na lang sarili ko para magising
• pati yung mga party at gimik ndi na ako pumupunta
• kapag niyayaya ako ng mga kaibigan ko namag-gateway o mamasyal, NO agad sagot ko, which is sobrang sakit, kse best friends ko sila, tapos ndi ko na sila maxado nakakausap
• kapag may party sa family ko dinadala ko na lng ung mga libro ko tapos imbis na nagsasaya ako dun o nakikipagkwentuhan sa mga pinsan ko, gumagawa ako ng noli me tangere, pinipilit ko na lang namagfocus kahit mamamatay sa inggit
• tapos kapag may reunion kami nung mga elementary na kaklase ko, ndi na ako pumupunta kahit super miss ko na sila, super miss ko na bestfriend ko, teacher ko na nagalaga sa akin, pati yung mga kaaway ko dati. tinatanggihan ko na lang kasi ayoko mawaste yung time ko. kaya yun since march 2009 ndi na kami nagkita

now that i had told you all of the things i don't like about the school, and what sacrifice i give up just to have time for everything, now i'll tell you why i've been a time conscious person and what exactly are the things that i want to do on my spare time (mga naipong oras)

why i value time so much that i have to sacrifice important things in my life for making time

• kasi perfectionist at achiever ako
• at dahil perfectionist at achiever ako, marami akong pangarap, marami akong gustong gawin, marami akong gustong iimprove, marami akong gustong pagtuunan ng pansin
• why do i need to sacrifice some of the important things in my life? well that a fucking simple question, that's because 3/4 ng time ng buhay ko napupunta sa skul, thats PRIMARILY WHY I DON'T LIKE SCHOOL AND I LOVE VACATIONS, 1/4 naman ng time ko sa needs ko kaya singit-singit na lang ung time for improvement.. tsk,..
• my promise ako sa sarili ko na before i graduate, i will be that, i will do that and blablabla pero parang wala din nangyayari kaya i really need to achieve and accomplish these, kasi matagal ko na ito pinangarap, kaso yun nga, WALA AKONG TIME..

what exactly is my ideal life? what type of person would i want to be? what are the things that i need to achieve?

• i wanna be super smart
• yung tipong manonosebleed ka sa mga sinasabi ko katulad ni kevs, tapos ung parang scientist na kahit high school palaang gumagamit na ng microscope, nageexperimento na ng mga acid, parang si jimmy neutron!
• o kaya ung tipong kabisado na kung saan makikita sa map ung mga bansa na ganito, bansa na ganyan at di mo na kailangan magsearch sa net o magbasa sa library kasi may kaklase ka na na magsasabi sau tungkol sa historical backgrond ng kung anu-anung bansa
• o kaya ung tipong henyo sa math, o parang buhay na calculator na kapag tinanong ng teacher "what is the supplement of 90", and i'll be like "90-x" and my classmates will be like hell yeah thats wut u call smart!
• o kya naman ung parang walking dictionary o thesaurus naman na pagtinanong mo na "ui, ano ibig sabihin ng heronyms" o "anu ibig sabihin ng word na chintziest at potpourri" tapos makakasagot ka agad
• o ung super talinong bata na hindi xa ung natututo kundi ung teacher nya ung tinuturuan nya
• yun yung mga tipong gusto ko
• i wanna be a good singer
• dati ko pa pangarap e2
• gusto ko kasi maging singer ng kahit anong style, i am a music lover. kaya i like to be a rock singer, jazz, pop or country singer at kahit opera singer
• i wanna learn different types of music instruments
• gusto ko maging kasing galing ni sungha jung sa guitar/fingerstyling
• gusto ko maging kasing galing ni akiko suwanai sa violin
• gusto ko maging kasing galing ni jay chou sa piano
• gusto ko rin matuto ng flute, harp at saxophone!! and drums pa pla
• and it's one of my dreams din to be in a orchestra
• i wanna be more athletic
• i wanna be a good volleyball player, badminton, table tennis, tennis player 
• basta i wanna be more athletic
• i wanna live an organized life
• gusto ko maging maayos
• gusto ko magkaroon ng time for everything, for my family, for my friends and for myself

and what will i do to accomplish them? eh di fucking work and train for it! kaso nga kasi wala akong time at sabi ko nga 3/4 of my time is wasted for myschool.. and that's the main thing i'm a time conscious person

and that you already knew a lot of things about me, my dynamic personality and my dreams, next i'll tell you what things stop me from chasing my dreams. in other words, time wasters (in exact detail!

shitty things that i need to do FOR SCHOOL but don't want to do

• assignments
• advance review - kaso parating epic fail e2ng mga efforts ko sa pagrereview, kse mostly ndi lumalabas sa quiz or ndi nman pala ididisuss ng teacher ko
• umattend sa mga group projects and blablabla

i do all these everyday! and i shittingly can't escape from it 

here are things that I WANT TO DO by myself, to accomplish my goals and make my dreams come trueeeeeeee... BUT CAN'T DO IT!

1. i want to study so hard!!!
• i wanna read novels, read and study school books, college books, read articles
• i wanna see documentary videos
• i wanna learn more about, arithmetic, biology, chemistry, physics, biochemistry, 
• i want to get ready for college!!!
• i wanna read and study an encyclopedia all day and all night long
2. i want to practice and train my talents
• i wanna play piano and learn to read notes by myself
• i wanna train my voice, with the vocal lessons i got from youtube
• i wanna play guitar 
3. i want to exercise everyday
• for health purposes
• for body toning 
• for improving agility, strength, endurance, flexibility skills
• stress fighting and etc...
4. have a healthy lifestyle
• i wanna sleep more! kse mas humuhusay utak ko kapag natutulog ako ng mabuti, nakakapag memorize ako at mas resistant ako sa sickness. at hindi na ako gagastos ng coffee para makapagpuyat
• i wanna do yoga and concentration at least 5 minutes everyday
• i wanna clean my room and be more organized
• i wanna have time for my friends, family and myself
• i wanna have time for break and relaxation
• i wanna help in doing household  chores
• i wanna have time for God and time to attend mass

and the only way to get to that point, to have time to do these things are 1.) vacations and 2.)sacrifice to have time ad 3.) home studying!! that's why i like to go home studying because vacations are too short, and i want it now!, sacrifices are too painful, home studying is definitely perfect for me.

benefits of home studying, time comparison between going to school and home studying

so let me tell you about home studying.. and compare it with regular schooling, let's start with the positive ones

1. in home studying, you have a lot of time to do anything, in regular schooling you barely have time for anything.. only 1/4 of my time is spent with home studying and 3/4 is spent with regular  schooling. AND I OBVIOUSLY FUCKING NEED TIME TO work on my improvements..
2. in home studying you dont have to travel so, that's 0 minutes for traveling, but with regular schooling, you need to wake up early morning and keep up with everyday traffic which is like 60-120 minutes a day!
3. in regular schooling you fucking spend more than 30 minutes for eating, 10 minutes getting to the canteen area, 10 minutes buying food, thronging in the line, bumping students, 5 minutes eating, 5 minutes bathroom time.. but if u're at home u don't have to do all that crappy things. u just get ur fuckin food, fucking eat it in fucking 5 mnutes
4. in regular schooling 60 minutes is wasted copying notes that sometimes aren't discuss in the class and just written in ur notebook for nothing.. it takes a lot of weeks to master a chapter and  a week for the assessment, im not blaming the school for this, because it's the usual routine and of course we are in groups. but in home studying you have more than 12 hours to focus on subjects you WANT to study, you can master a chapter in a week and have assessment less than an hour.. huge difference.
5. in regular schooling it doesnt mean that if u're outside the school, you won't be doing anything related to school, on weekends, i still need to go to my classmates houses and do group works with them, after school, sometimes i am obliged to go to my classmates house to practice for something and that makes me go home late.. but with home studying, you wont be doing anything like that.. because you fucking own your time

 problems with home studying and how do i deal with them

of course, there's always two sides of a coin but i do know how to deal with them. so here are my problems and my ways on dealing with them

1. problem: i may miss some lessons that high school students are required to take. solution: well that's a simple problem, i can just ask my classmates what they are learning or just look up on the net the curriculum of Philippine Science High School and study them all by myself
2. problem: i may lost my friends and only have few friends in the future. solution: social networking, parties every friday night, meet new friends in new school.
3. problem: i might lose my talent in singing at baka ndi na ako makasali sa concert. solution: join hail mary the queen children's choir, better choirmaster, better concerts (in other countries pa!), better vocalizations..

i know i'll not be 100% successful, because i admit, sometimes, i mess up 

1. dahil aaminin ko may mali din ako, naglalaro at naadik din ako sa games, sinasayang ko din oras ko sa games
• kaya nga nagdodownload ako ng kung anu-anong web filter para lang mablock ung mga games sites DI BA?
• kaya nga nagpapalagay ako ng passowrd sa mga gumagamit sa computer ara ndi ako makapasok sa free pass o may internet access an account nyo
• kse ung account ko puro nakablock ung game sites, tapos tinatago ko na lng ung password sa CD para ndi ako matempt na i-unblock ung mga game sites

c'mon just imagine that....

that's all for homestudying!! this was made directly to address my dad and mom because they asked for it. although they still didnt agree and i changed my mind because there will be problems with my college life and my dad said i wont be accepted in college if i was homeschooled and all that. i wasnt just really sure for it thats why i didn't continue and begged for my parents to get me to homeschooling. i just dealt with my problems..... 'cause if there's one thing i won't sacrifice for this plan, that is my college life (and of course family, God, etc)