SKIN CARE PRODUCTS
I spent nearly 1000 pesos buying a exfoliating scrub, whitening lotion, waxing kit, sunscreen and I thought I would be happy after buying them. I bought the St. Ives apricot exfoliating scrub. I haven't tried it yet but i guess it's good to have that, the Nivea sunscreen and lip balm. What's so depressing and surprising is that I bought this Amira Magic Skin Whitening Lotion (supposedly the cream is what I would buy), then just a moment ago I read from the internet that it has carcinogen content which causes cancer! I also bought Epilin waxing kit, (supposedly the Strip It! waxing kit, but the stores are closed and this is the only good one i can buy) and tried it on my underarm. Since I was new to waxing myself/at home I find it hard to get all the hair out of my underarm. It took me 3 times to heat up the wax so it would stick on my underarm. I don't even know if the temperature I'm setting on the microwave is right, because it only has 350 degrees and up indicated, so i just based it on the how hot the wax went. I searched for tutorial in the internet for Epilin, but I only found waxing tutorial for Strip It! wax, and in that video, I saw how hairless and clean the girl's arm became, and it really made me regret buying Epilin over Strip it! just for time and place reasons. In short, I wasted nearly 500 pesos buying shit that i won't find useful anymore! or even consider using it.
There's a few more things I want to buy for my skin. I want to get that Strip it waxing kit, an aloe vera gel for waxing, new whitening product - this time it's bee-luscious whitening cream, a cleanser and a moisturizer. I want to buy all of those because it leaves me satisfied and confident that I'll have better skin in terms of tone, texture and overall appearance. The problem is just I don't fucking have enough money!!!! each product costs around 200 pesos! and where the hell would i get that? sure, i have that much money on my bank, but I have to hold myself and remind me of my priorities because i need to buy more important stuff than these. So yeah, I guess I just wait til I have my job and earn lots of money. Just wait til i'm fun sucking 20!
WORKOUT CLOTHES AND RUNNING SHOES
The more important stuff I was talking about, besides my new clothes for my college life, are WORKOUT CLOTHES and RUNNING SHOES. For every runner, it's a must to have a good running shoes, at least 2 pairs, so you can switch/use them alternately, and good workout clothes with good fabric, to keep your sweat condition ok. So, what I did was I searched for tips on buying running shoes and workout clothes on the internet.I found out that good running shoes are those branded ones (adidas, brooks, saucony) which are like 4000 pesos for each pair!!! The workout clothes were the same, I searched for Dryfit and coolmax and it was around 1500 pesos, although I found one labeled as drifit (on sulit.com.ph), I don't know if its misspelled or what, but it's just 150. That's for short and top. So I made up my mind and decided that I'll just buy new rubber shoes costing at least, around P1000 and workout clothes not less than P1000. But again since I wasted my money over that damn skin products I have to sacrifice the money left (P500 something) for my college necessities!
And, you know, besides that, I want to workout in the gym, but I don't have guts to do that! I have zero knowledge about anything on the gym and I get insecure just thinking about going there, even when jogging, I still get insecure.
It's just all about the MONEY and having self confidence.. in other words (again).. BEING 20!
CONFIDENCE TO TALK WITH AWESOME PEOPLE
Now this one, I know it has nothing, totally, to do with money. It's more of confidence and talking experience.
A moment ago, I went on tim urban's facebook page. There's some contest he's putting up there.
It says you have to make a music video for his song to be released, entitled "Someday" and whoever got the most views, likes and whichever he thinks fits the song/he best liked will win a free skype chat with Tim. The thing that caught me here is the prize.. >> A FREE SKYPE CHAT WITH TIM?? << omg, that would be my best day ever if i won that.! problem: i don't have the talent, equipment, confidence, money, time, back up people to do that! what the hell, if only i was 20 when, I'll probably have built my talents and gained confidence, had my own job and m$ney, and trustworthy friends that would help me anytime.... IF ONLY!!! then i would have joined that competition and won a free chat with tim urban. DANG.!
and even if I was able to join this, now, and won. I won't still have the full confidence to have a live chat with tim urban. C'mon, I can't speak straight in English, I don't know what else to talk with Tim, and I don't know Tim Urban's interests, maybe sports, I don't know the frickin hell anything about sports (UGGHH what a loser me), so what are we supposed to talk about? If ever I had to have chat with him, right now, with this face on, with this anti-social attitude on, it would be hell terrible!!!! It would be awkward and boring. ugh. If only I was more confident and richer! IF ONLY I WAS TWENTY YEARS OLD!!
