few things i want to spit the fuck out before Christmas

for your information, all of these things are the negative ones, i don't have anything good to tell....

MY DAD IS EPIC

We didn't had our nanny since November. Now, us, family are sharing the household chores. Especially mom and dad. The problem is this: My siblings and I are busy, and the work between my mom and dad is not divided equally. Mom is always doing the chores, doing the laundry all by herself, taking care/feeding my baby sister, cleaning the house, cooking the dinner and all that.

and Dad's like this: taking care of my baby sis, and that's that. My mom barely have a time for internet (she uses Facebook for about a minute), and Dad can have the whole night singing at the karaoke, watching DVDs and such. I'm not like vilifying my Dad, but that's the truth. I love my Dad but not if he do this. I know that he's been going through painful problems but so did mom. I really don't want to post something bad about my dad but I just can't take it, it's UNFAIR! That's a fucking single thing to do why can't you do that, Dad? Why can't my dad take care of my baby sister all the time and just leave it on us? We have busy lives, and I know I should not be like complaining because I'm a teenager that can do stuff that adults can do, like babysitting my sister, but the thing is, like what i said, THAT'S A FUCKIN SINGLE THING that my dad should be doing, my mom has a thousand things to do and she accomplishes everything, why can't my dad do that? I really hate to say something like this but that's the main thing why I hate my dad. I can do the babysitting, i can help in laundry and other household chores (which I already am doing) but dad shouldn't be there, sitting, relaxing and watching TV like what other irresponsible human beings do. We are family, we are all sacrificing our fucking time, we should help each other and every work should be divided.

Now, my dad got home and he got headache (coz from drinking!), so he said he can't take care of Ayette, so my mom had to feed and take care of her again (good thing my mom didn't got mad at him, 'cause she always get mad when dad leaves the work to her). Don't worry, I already have a plan for this household chores, and that includes helping in the laundry, washing dishes, ironing clothes, cleaning the house, so maybe I'll minimize my MOM'S work.

After all that I wrote, dad is still the best guy ever.

I CAN'T START MY EXERCISE ROUTINE

This week, I've been planning to jog around our neighborhood or at the park and I need to choose the best time, place and the best exercises that I will do. So I wrote 4 time options:  5-6 am in the morning, 4-5 pm, 5-6 pm, and 6-7 pm. I judged the perfect time not depending on my mood but depending on the people around the neighborhood that was staying outside. To let you know, my neighborhood isn't the  type of, you know, quiet places with well-built homes, people with good jobs, it's not that. It's like a mix of that and some of the squatter people/areas/places/homes.

So expect there'll be groups of people shouting, having drinks, playing basketball, talking shit and laughing like shits. And I got conscious around these what we call "tambay" people that stay outside (because they have nothing to get busy with). While I jog, I just get paranoid that they'll be talking about me or how I look when I'm having intense workout,  and I can't be comfortable with that.

                                   

 I can stay for the whole time thinking this and that but I don't get the motivation and enjoyment that I should have when jogging. So here, before I was doing this blog, I searched for some alternative exercises that I can replace for jogging and I can just do at home. And again, I'm not putting down the "tambay"people, it's just my prejudice mind that thinks that, no offense please. Maybe I just need to get used to it...

THE COUGH THAT RUINED MY PLANS
Since Sunday I had my cough and cold which I got from my brother. One thing I hate about life is having cough and colds... First, I can't do my voice lessons, Second, my working rate slows down to 20%, Third, I have to take that damn medicines that cost around 800 pesos and do those remedies and practices that consumes just 4-5 hours! It causes so much trouble!!!! I've realized that since last 2 years, and starting from that day I realized it, I promised that I'll stay a meter away from that fucking person who has cough virus or whatever. I wasn't able to do that because I did not know my brother has cough and he slept beside me the night before I got my cough. I don't blame my brother for that and it's not my fault (well, partly it's my fault) so I just have to face it.

 I should have done my vocal lessons but I keep delaying and delaying it until now. Now, I have compiled works to do, not only from the vocal exercises but my studies and all that I missed because of getting sick! I can do the remedies but it's not that fast, and i need to get rid of it FAST! So, instead of drink lemonade, inhaling steam, blowing my nose all the time, I go to the doctor and bought the medicines on hard cash. :(

Well, whether I like it or not I have to fucking do it and deal with it. So I barely finish my activities and now until Christmas I have lots and lots to do. I'm healing and getting better but I haven't get rid of the cough and cold totally. WISH ME LUCK!

Merry Christmas BTW. But for me I think I'll celebrate mine 4 months, after I have that vibrato...