few things i want to spit the fuck out before Christmas

for your information, all of these things are the negative ones, i don't have anything good to tell....

MY DAD IS EPIC

We didn't had our nanny since November. Now, us, family are sharing the household chores. Especially mom and dad. The problem is this: My siblings and I are busy, and the work between my mom and dad is not divided equally. Mom is always doing the chores, doing the laundry all by herself, taking care/feeding my baby sister, cleaning the house, cooking the dinner and all that.

and Dad's like this: taking care of my baby sis, and that's that. My mom barely have a time for internet (she uses Facebook for about a minute), and Dad can have the whole night singing at the karaoke, watching DVDs and such. I'm not like vilifying my Dad, but that's the truth. I love my Dad but not if he do this. I know that he's been going through painful problems but so did mom. I really don't want to post something bad about my dad but I just can't take it, it's UNFAIR! That's a fucking single thing to do why can't you do that, Dad? Why can't my dad take care of my baby sister all the time and just leave it on us? We have busy lives, and I know I should not be like complaining because I'm a teenager that can do stuff that adults can do, like babysitting my sister, but the thing is, like what i said, THAT'S A FUCKIN SINGLE THING that my dad should be doing, my mom has a thousand things to do and she accomplishes everything, why can't my dad do that? I really hate to say something like this but that's the main thing why I hate my dad. I can do the babysitting, i can help in laundry and other household chores (which I already am doing) but dad shouldn't be there, sitting, relaxing and watching TV like what other irresponsible human beings do. We are family, we are all sacrificing our fucking time, we should help each other and every work should be divided.

Now, my dad got home and he got headache (coz from drinking!), so he said he can't take care of Ayette, so my mom had to feed and take care of her again (good thing my mom didn't got mad at him, 'cause she always get mad when dad leaves the work to her). Don't worry, I already have a plan for this household chores, and that includes helping in the laundry, washing dishes, ironing clothes, cleaning the house, so maybe I'll minimize my MOM'S work.

After all that I wrote, dad is still the best guy ever.

I CAN'T START MY EXERCISE ROUTINE

This week, I've been planning to jog around our neighborhood or at the park and I need to choose the best time, place and the best exercises that I will do. So I wrote 4 time options:  5-6 am in the morning, 4-5 pm, 5-6 pm, and 6-7 pm. I judged the perfect time not depending on my mood but depending on the people around the neighborhood that was staying outside. To let you know, my neighborhood isn't the  type of, you know, quiet places with well-built homes, people with good jobs, it's not that. It's like a mix of that and some of the squatter people/areas/places/homes.

So expect there'll be groups of people shouting, having drinks, playing basketball, talking shit and laughing like shits. And I got conscious around these what we call "tambay" people that stay outside (because they have nothing to get busy with). While I jog, I just get paranoid that they'll be talking about me or how I look when I'm having intense workout,  and I can't be comfortable with that.

                                   

 I can stay for the whole time thinking this and that but I don't get the motivation and enjoyment that I should have when jogging. So here, before I was doing this blog, I searched for some alternative exercises that I can replace for jogging and I can just do at home. And again, I'm not putting down the "tambay"people, it's just my prejudice mind that thinks that, no offense please. Maybe I just need to get used to it...

THE COUGH THAT RUINED MY PLANS
Since Sunday I had my cough and cold which I got from my brother. One thing I hate about life is having cough and colds... First, I can't do my voice lessons, Second, my working rate slows down to 20%, Third, I have to take that damn medicines that cost around 800 pesos and do those remedies and practices that consumes just 4-5 hours! It causes so much trouble!!!! I've realized that since last 2 years, and starting from that day I realized it, I promised that I'll stay a meter away from that fucking person who has cough virus or whatever. I wasn't able to do that because I did not know my brother has cough and he slept beside me the night before I got my cough. I don't blame my brother for that and it's not my fault (well, partly it's my fault) so I just have to face it.

 I should have done my vocal lessons but I keep delaying and delaying it until now. Now, I have compiled works to do, not only from the vocal exercises but my studies and all that I missed because of getting sick! I can do the remedies but it's not that fast, and i need to get rid of it FAST! So, instead of drink lemonade, inhaling steam, blowing my nose all the time, I go to the doctor and bought the medicines on hard cash. :(

Well, whether I like it or not I have to fucking do it and deal with it. So I barely finish my activities and now until Christmas I have lots and lots to do. I'm healing and getting better but I haven't get rid of the cough and cold totally. WISH ME LUCK!

Merry Christmas BTW. But for me I think I'll celebrate mine 4 months, after I have that vibrato...

MY AWESOME ENGLISH FORMAL THEME

Today I didn't come to school because I haven't finished my homework in English. It's the most breathtaking overwhelming awe-inspiring jaw-dropping worth reading formal theme I've ever made. FYI  I sacrificed a day for that! Here it is:

NOTE:You may not be impressed

The Three Most Important Persons

The most important persons for me are my family, my enemies and God. I chose my family because they are my foundation. They supported me and built me up. Who would live well without a family? If you have no family then you won’t have your basic necessities and you will literally suffer and die. Even if you have basic necessities, but you don’t have a family that loves you and cares about you, then you wouldn’t know how to love and care about people, how to deal with people and everything else that comes with getting a life. But you don’t also need to have a perfect family that gives you everything and loves you too much (too much or too little of something isn’t good). If my father hadn’t been too strict about my actions and decisions, then I wouldn’t grow up being careful in considering consequences of even the little things I do. I probably won’t have my table organized and clothes neatly folded if mom wasn’t there, because she taught me how to be used in cleaning up my own mess, and organizing them, not only with material things but with my everyday problems in life. My brother and sisters, I they gave me the strength and idea of being positive about everything. My family includes my closest friends, who taught me to ask for God’s help and to follow the steps of Jesus.

There comes God, my inspiration and my ideal ‘person’. I didn’t choose God because of the common reason that he built up the world, he made us and all that, but simply (just like what I’ve written) because he’s my ideal person. Having an ideal person is like having a direction/path for your life leading to whatever your dream is.  All these are our goals in life and having a goal is as important as having a life, because if you have no goal, no dream, no target or no ideal person then you have NO direction to go anywhere. You tend to take everything given to you for granted and just waste the chance given to you by God to live. These are also one of the very reasons why I still live. Having God as my ideal person, I dreamt of helping my family, doing charity works, sharing people what I have and living a life of peace and justice. I’m not always successful in going to the right direction; sometimes I am tempted and I opt to walk the wrong way.

It may be because of my imperfection, because of the criticism I receive or just because of my dear enemies. No matter how nice you are, there’s always someone who hates you, envies you and puts you down. Enemies are the problems in our lives, but they are also the challenges that make us stronger. They give our life significance and adventure, something to look up to. Life would be boring if they weren’t there.  That’s what I am satisfied of, what I need and what life is full of, lot of problems, but also a lot of supports coming from family and one direction to go to God.

When laziness strikes

You know the feeling when you want to do something else, but you still have some ASSIGNMENT to do but you can not do cause you don't want to?

Sunday evening, perfect time for cramming but fuck I don't like cramming but somehow I ended up doing so. I won't  be posting blogs if I was too motivated to do our fucking Investigatory Project. But maybe later, after I finish this blog. Probably, so I can record my thoughts and show this to my Physics teacher.

this is by the way the look of the screen when I started forcing myself to open the MS-WORD:

Doesn't look so exciting :(. But fuck it's 7:40 pm!! I still have to finish, this, take pictures, and prepare myself for tomorrow. At least I've started something. If I was just motivated now, I would have done this already. But yeah, whatever, superheroes don't give up. I gotta finish this.

I'll post later when I'm out of kindness.

bwiset na mga kagroupmates

since ang dami dami dami dami dami kong ginagawa ndi na ako nagpopost maxado. kse super busyyyyyy tlaga namin. And now, kahit sembreak na, angdami ko pa ring iniisip at ginagawa. It's not school related naman, pero para sa College Entrance Exams ko, nag-aaral ako ngayong sembreak.

Kaso, there's always something bothering my mind. Anu yun? INVESTIGATORY PROJECT! bwiset kasi, ako lang at ang papa ko gumagawa... well, literally, ndi lang naman kami, tumulong din last last week yung dalawa kong group mates. Pero what the fuck, wala silang concern sa project! Stressed na ako dito, naaawa pa ako sa papa ko wala na nga pahinga fucking doing my project pa.

Well maybe, it's my fault too. Kasi late na ako magpost ng announcement or late na ako magsabi sa kanila na magkikita sa ganitong araw, blah blah blah at kasi INAAKO ko ung mga trabaho. At di naman 100% ako yung gumagawa, much came from my father. Pero di ba sana naging concern lang naman sila sa project NAMIN! have some sympathy!! ano ba naman yung mga nakukuha kong replies? si Jay-Ar lang yata yung my concern eh, yung iba "Good luck nalang". And what? good luck sa paggawa ng project, N-A-T-I-N? What would I get, a fake "thank you?". haixxtttttt..

I dunno, but I should solve this problem, gusto ko lang talaga ilabas yung sama ng loob ko kasi napupuno na ako. That the main purpose anyway, why I made my blog. Kahit ano naman eh pwede ilagay at siguro wala naman makakabasa at magkakainteresadong basahin ito. Siguro kung pinost ko ito sa facebook I'll get negative feedback for writing vulgar words or get sanctioned or worse! So yeah, better to post here.

There's more, but i really need to go solve my bullshit problem. Chat muna kay God. bye

wihi super first blog!!!!!!!

its thursday night july 28 2011

i still have a lot of things and homeworks to doo!!!!

pero kse badtrip ako ngayon, kya i decided to sign up a blog site to share my feeling even though alam ko halos wala naman makakabasa neto

pero it just feels good kapag nalalabas mo feelings mo

so anyway halo-halo na emotions ko ngayon..

dapat talaga gumagawa ako ng assignment sa filipino pero wla ewan ko..

cge gawa muna ako assignment!

see yah!

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an hour ago

im almost done with my assignment! kakaantok na nga ngayun eh. i still have so much to do. but i just want to check out my blog again haha! i sooo wanna do another great blog! pero cge na nga next time na nga lang. hayyyyyyyyy. pagdasal nyo na lang wala pasok tomorrow!